1. I was watching a program on Deutsche Welle a few days ago. There was this report that Germany has started a program that is educating young students about food facts and how to enjoy food, in general. The report was explaining many young German students have tendency to eat fast food and in particular greasy food. German board of education has decided to include an extra course to school’s curriculum, of students as young as 11, to teach them about food facts and ways they can learn about food nutrition. As one of chef who was teaching the class put it:” we teach them how they can enjoy the food that has different taste and appearance”, “the art of eating and enjoying rather than devouring some greasy food like burgers in McDonalds”, “If they want to eat pizza what and how they shall enjoy it”. I felt this is one of those courses that our students in Iran can benefit a lot from it. Why? I tell you why?
Four out of every 5 people in western countries, if not all of them, have worked in food related services. As soon as they get to the age that they are eligible for work they start to work at places like McDonalds or Pizza hut, etc. There they develop character, means for treating food or developing taste while they are not in service, something that many of us in Iran not get a chance to learn or percept. Just pay a visit to a local Iranian Restaurant and you will see what I am saying in regard of services and food they provide. We spend lot of our time chewing, tasting and eating. At school all kind of courses are thought, so, why not a course about how to treat food, develop taste and enjoy this moment of our life, na!?
2. Couple of interesting links, thanks to Narges:
Yahoo Islamic Version!
check this one: Javad.
& for all new drivers: Drive like there is no tomorrow!
3. Leila has started prostitution right from 9 years old. He is on verge of getting executed in prision at age of 18! Read her story here (In Persian). Sad story, though.
4. and a song from Moody Blues: Autumn For Leila and those who are in same shoes as she is.
Forever Autumn
The summer sun is fading as the year grows old
And darker days are drawing near.
The winter winds will be much colder
Now you're not here.
I watch the birds fly south across the autumn sky
And one by one they disappear.
I wish that I was flying with them
Now you're not here.
Like the sun through the trees you came to love me.
Like a leaf on a breeze you blew away.
Through autumn's golden gown we used to kick our way,
You always loved this time of year.
Those fallen leaves lie undisturbed now
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.
'Cause you're not here.
Like the sun through the trees you came to love me,
Like a leaf on a breeze you blew away.
A gentle rain falls softly on my weary eyes
As if to hide a lonely tear,
My life will be forever autumn
'Cause you're not here.
Monday, November 29, 2004
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Pleasantville!
I had an opportunity watching the movie called Pleasantville. This movie is made in 1998 with some arguably seamless special effects! It is not an action movie though it has considerable action in it that makes you to think of. The story goes like this.
In the universe of "Pleasantville", a black-and-white Fifties sitcom, life is pleasant. The high school basketball team never misses a shot, nothing ever catches on fire (consequently, the firemen only rescue cats stuck in trees), husband and wives sleep in separate beds, high school sweethearts go no further than holding hands and getting 'pinned', and everything is in varying shades of gray.
One night, David finds himself fighting with his promiscuous twin sister Jennifer for the television remote, which is irreparably broken during the struggle. Before they know it, an ominous television repairman shows up at the door, and offers the two kids a brand new high-tech remote. However, David and Jennifer soon realize that it is not just your run-of-the-mill Radio Shack remote when they are magically transported to the world of Pleasantville.
After the initial disorientation, they realize not only are they now in black-and white, but they have assumed the identities of the television show's two teenage children, Bud and Mary Sue. They then meet their chipper television parents, George and Betty, who seem oblivious to the fact that their model children are not who they appear to be.
For David/Bud, it is a dream come true, living out his life in comfortable surroundings without the struggle or strife of real life. On the other hand, Jennifer/Mary Sue abhors her new environment, finding the local scene too bland for her liking. Being her usual forward self, she aggressively liberates the virginity of the captain of the basketball team, Skip (Paul Walker). Her reckless activities then begin a chain reaction that unleashes a torrent of unexpected changes in Pleasantville.
Unfortunately, the changes in the physical and social fabric of Pleasantville do not go unchallenged. As the town's residents begin to explore the joys of art, books, passion, and color, the dark side of human nature is also unleashed. Spearheaded by the town's mayor, a conservative black-and-white backlash is organized. Willing to do anything to maintain the status quo, their fear and paranoia lead to intolerance, hate-crimes, and violence against the newly colored.
I felt couple of real issues were discussed in this movie. First, changes are inevitable facts of our life. If we try to avoid, stop the changes that is useless act of desperateness. Either we want it or not changes take place. What is important is the fact that we live in the world that contains many people with completely different ideas and way of thinking. We should tolerate those differences between ourselves. We should not demolish or try to be boneheaded if things are not on way of our pleasure. As long as we accept logical rules we can have dialogue.
The movie ends with the fact that changes are taking place and they will stay. I felt the movie truthfully resembles our current Iranian society. There are group of people who are unwilling to accept that there is big difference between kids in 1980 and today ones. There are still people in society feel that things must stay the same.
The old guy with long beard can have the last say. He does not make mistakes. (Watch an Iranian movie).
We have to learn and accept that people can looked at world different angles and have different perceptions from the same issue. Let’s enjoy them as part of our life experiences. Different circumstances require different measures. World changes, so people in it. So, let us enjoy what we have and not regretting it a single moment.
In the universe of "Pleasantville", a black-and-white Fifties sitcom, life is pleasant. The high school basketball team never misses a shot, nothing ever catches on fire (consequently, the firemen only rescue cats stuck in trees), husband and wives sleep in separate beds, high school sweethearts go no further than holding hands and getting 'pinned', and everything is in varying shades of gray.
One night, David finds himself fighting with his promiscuous twin sister Jennifer for the television remote, which is irreparably broken during the struggle. Before they know it, an ominous television repairman shows up at the door, and offers the two kids a brand new high-tech remote. However, David and Jennifer soon realize that it is not just your run-of-the-mill Radio Shack remote when they are magically transported to the world of Pleasantville.
After the initial disorientation, they realize not only are they now in black-and white, but they have assumed the identities of the television show's two teenage children, Bud and Mary Sue. They then meet their chipper television parents, George and Betty, who seem oblivious to the fact that their model children are not who they appear to be.
For David/Bud, it is a dream come true, living out his life in comfortable surroundings without the struggle or strife of real life. On the other hand, Jennifer/Mary Sue abhors her new environment, finding the local scene too bland for her liking. Being her usual forward self, she aggressively liberates the virginity of the captain of the basketball team, Skip (Paul Walker). Her reckless activities then begin a chain reaction that unleashes a torrent of unexpected changes in Pleasantville.
Unfortunately, the changes in the physical and social fabric of Pleasantville do not go unchallenged. As the town's residents begin to explore the joys of art, books, passion, and color, the dark side of human nature is also unleashed. Spearheaded by the town's mayor, a conservative black-and-white backlash is organized. Willing to do anything to maintain the status quo, their fear and paranoia lead to intolerance, hate-crimes, and violence against the newly colored.
I felt couple of real issues were discussed in this movie. First, changes are inevitable facts of our life. If we try to avoid, stop the changes that is useless act of desperateness. Either we want it or not changes take place. What is important is the fact that we live in the world that contains many people with completely different ideas and way of thinking. We should tolerate those differences between ourselves. We should not demolish or try to be boneheaded if things are not on way of our pleasure. As long as we accept logical rules we can have dialogue.
The movie ends with the fact that changes are taking place and they will stay. I felt the movie truthfully resembles our current Iranian society. There are group of people who are unwilling to accept that there is big difference between kids in 1980 and today ones. There are still people in society feel that things must stay the same.
The old guy with long beard can have the last say. He does not make mistakes. (Watch an Iranian movie).
We have to learn and accept that people can looked at world different angles and have different perceptions from the same issue. Let’s enjoy them as part of our life experiences. Different circumstances require different measures. World changes, so people in it. So, let us enjoy what we have and not regretting it a single moment.
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Cultural values!!
I returned...:)
1. This is very cool site. I couldn't believe it!
Guess your sign!
2. Anybody?: God is a concept by which we measure our pain!
3.
1. A scene of fight because of an accident in an alley on North of Tehran, Shemran, the young guy was guilty. The young guy ran towards the middle age guy and starting to fist fight!
2. Two women starting to swear at each other, reason because one felt the other has jumped into the line where it was not her right!
3. A men insulting a police officer for being penalized and getting a huge fine for not having a seat belt on.
4. Two men are fighting with knife for an accident that took place on the wide and traffic poured street.
5. A car is stuck on the street where there is a heavy traffic, the driver of the car get off the car and opens up the engine side and starts to look around the engine for possible malfunction. People driving by start to bad mouth him!
6. You enter to an office, shop or governmental office; the guy acts snobby with no respect. Somehow we have to refrain ourselves from getting to the fight. Sometimes we can’t!
7. A guy is at fault in an accident with another car whose driver is a girl. He treats her like she is either less intelligent than other human in the society or that she is going to be at her service!
These are just a few of many thousand senses that are taking place in Tehran everyday. Why? Because we still act based on emotions and not from logical point of view. One would be the reason given. But the most important in my opinion is the fact of lack of cultural values. We still do not consider that individuals’ health is more important than valuable equipment in possession of us. Those are replaceable the equipment. What is not replaceable is health or human being, either physically or psychologically.
8. Brother Michael Jackson ham Baleh. This Aziz Jan-e Baradar ham Baleh, what shall I say! Michael is becoming a real Moslem! good for him/her (still don't know that)! (Thanks to Narges for the Links)
1. This is very cool site. I couldn't believe it!
Guess your sign!
2. Anybody?: God is a concept by which we measure our pain!
3.
1. A scene of fight because of an accident in an alley on North of Tehran, Shemran, the young guy was guilty. The young guy ran towards the middle age guy and starting to fist fight!
2. Two women starting to swear at each other, reason because one felt the other has jumped into the line where it was not her right!
3. A men insulting a police officer for being penalized and getting a huge fine for not having a seat belt on.
4. Two men are fighting with knife for an accident that took place on the wide and traffic poured street.
5. A car is stuck on the street where there is a heavy traffic, the driver of the car get off the car and opens up the engine side and starts to look around the engine for possible malfunction. People driving by start to bad mouth him!
6. You enter to an office, shop or governmental office; the guy acts snobby with no respect. Somehow we have to refrain ourselves from getting to the fight. Sometimes we can’t!
7. A guy is at fault in an accident with another car whose driver is a girl. He treats her like she is either less intelligent than other human in the society or that she is going to be at her service!
These are just a few of many thousand senses that are taking place in Tehran everyday. Why? Because we still act based on emotions and not from logical point of view. One would be the reason given. But the most important in my opinion is the fact of lack of cultural values. We still do not consider that individuals’ health is more important than valuable equipment in possession of us. Those are replaceable the equipment. What is not replaceable is health or human being, either physically or psychologically.
8. Brother Michael Jackson ham Baleh. This Aziz Jan-e Baradar ham Baleh, what shall I say! Michael is becoming a real Moslem! good for him/her (still don't know that)! (Thanks to Narges for the Links)
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Something to think about!
1. I was thinking about this sentence: God is a concept that we measure our pain with!
2. Thanks To Narges who sent me this link. This is a link to the famous book " Little Prince" by
Antoine de Saint Exupéry.
3. I shall return...:-)
2. Thanks To Narges who sent me this link. This is a link to the famous book " Little Prince" by
Antoine de Saint Exupéry.
3. I shall return...:-)
Thursday, October 21, 2004
My Opinion on Nuclear Activities of Iran
It has been about 1 year + we hear news about this game of cat and mouse between Iran and the rest of the world and world objection to Iran nuclear activities and all the negotiations that are taking place in this regard.
I really sometimes wonder about human being nature and his/her tendency to gain power. Sometimes this is considered to be a good nature. However, I personally do not think this is same as nuclear power.
I was just reading the following article in BBC. It makes me to wonder why so many Iranians feel that Iran should have nuclear enrichment program or nuclear capability to generate energy!
There are couples of real issues here, which we have not really dealt with them, yet.
One would be the fact that what do we wish to do with nuclear waste remaining from enrichment process?
Have we looked at our working force and their work consciousness? With lack of safety standard and ethical rules are we hoping to see another Chernobyl Nuclear Disaster. The other day I was thinking, as I have already written about it in previous articles in this weblog, in Iran we have dilemma with disposing paint or chemical paints! We do not even follow the Basel Protocol when it comes to disposing chemical materials, which are harmful to the environment. Having said that I wonder what do we wish to do with nuclear waste. Perhaps disposing them in either Caspian Sea or Persian Gulf!
Consequently, we will be exposed to nuclear radiation and as a result, generations will be handicapped. I am not sure is this what really we wish to have? Considering Iran has ability to produce energy from free and clean sources, such as sun and wind and thermo geologic sources. In Iran on average we receive more than 200 days per year sunny days. So, Sun would be a great resource to generate tax free, clean energy for us than nuclear power with so many headaches!
I really sometimes wonder about human being nature and his/her tendency to gain power. Sometimes this is considered to be a good nature. However, I personally do not think this is same as nuclear power.
I was just reading the following article in BBC. It makes me to wonder why so many Iranians feel that Iran should have nuclear enrichment program or nuclear capability to generate energy!
There are couples of real issues here, which we have not really dealt with them, yet.
One would be the fact that what do we wish to do with nuclear waste remaining from enrichment process?
Have we looked at our working force and their work consciousness? With lack of safety standard and ethical rules are we hoping to see another Chernobyl Nuclear Disaster. The other day I was thinking, as I have already written about it in previous articles in this weblog, in Iran we have dilemma with disposing paint or chemical paints! We do not even follow the Basel Protocol when it comes to disposing chemical materials, which are harmful to the environment. Having said that I wonder what do we wish to do with nuclear waste. Perhaps disposing them in either Caspian Sea or Persian Gulf!
Consequently, we will be exposed to nuclear radiation and as a result, generations will be handicapped. I am not sure is this what really we wish to have? Considering Iran has ability to produce energy from free and clean sources, such as sun and wind and thermo geologic sources. In Iran on average we receive more than 200 days per year sunny days. So, Sun would be a great resource to generate tax free, clean energy for us than nuclear power with so many headaches!
Monday, October 18, 2004
Iranians the judgmental type!
1. Have you ever noticed how much judgmental we are as soon as we encounter somebody! No matter from what background s/he is, we start to judge them and release a verdict. This is even, in my opinion worse, when it comes to Iranians in general. We have this tendency to judge and gossip as much as possible! I just read part-1 of the story that Mr. Siamack Baniamri written and felt, this is exactly what I mentioned above!! He is lawyer in USA.
...
Okay, picture this: you walk into a party full of elite Iranian expatriates. The guest list is made of Jews, Bahais, Moslems, and some Christians. The party is tame yet chic. Brandy in one hand, Cuban cigar in the other, the talk is all about real state. Some say buy and some say sell. Guests are well-bred, sophisticated, and a bit snobby. The assembly is made up of thriving individuals who wear their money and drive their money, and occupy $5-million mansions.... Read the rest of the story
here
2.
Cute, isn't it? This is a baby belong to a friend of mine!
3. Depression anyone? This is a test tells you whether you are depressed or not:) (In Persian)
4. Sometimes I daydream. I dream of days of past. Dream of being everywhere. Dream of how things could change if I had chosen different path.
As a big fan of John Lennon, I was just listening to lyrics of "In my life". I felt the song is so nicely written that I would like to keep repeating it with myself. enjoy:)
There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends, I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I'll love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I'll love you more
...
Okay, picture this: you walk into a party full of elite Iranian expatriates. The guest list is made of Jews, Bahais, Moslems, and some Christians. The party is tame yet chic. Brandy in one hand, Cuban cigar in the other, the talk is all about real state. Some say buy and some say sell. Guests are well-bred, sophisticated, and a bit snobby. The assembly is made up of thriving individuals who wear their money and drive their money, and occupy $5-million mansions.... Read the rest of the story
here
2.
Cute, isn't it? This is a baby belong to a friend of mine!
3. Depression anyone? This is a test tells you whether you are depressed or not:) (In Persian)
4. Sometimes I daydream. I dream of days of past. Dream of being everywhere. Dream of how things could change if I had chosen different path.
As a big fan of John Lennon, I was just listening to lyrics of "In my life". I felt the song is so nicely written that I would like to keep repeating it with myself. enjoy:)
There are places I'll remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends, I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I'll love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I'll love you more
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Old friend...
After a few weeks I came across Orkat and list of my friends. By looking at faces of some of my old friends I realized how things has changed throughout these years. Suddenly, I recalled the song "Old Friend" from Chris de Burgh. So, enjoy it:-)
Old friend, so you're in trouble again, you ask me today,
To try and find a little time, and maybe buy a glass of wine,
Old friend, I'm coming through...
Old friend, yes I remember you, always a smile on your face,
Oh a memory from years before, an old man and a little boy,
Old friend, I remember you...
You used to take me fishing down by the wishing well,
One day you threw a wish in, and we listened while it fell,
And you made a wish...
"When the years are heavy, and my heart is growing cold,
Well I wish when the evening comes that there'll always Be...
Some old friend who'll miss me too..."
Well I do, so friend I'm coming through...
Yes, for you I'll always find the time, we will have a bottle
Of wine, old friend, I'm here by your side, oh, to the very end,
Old friend ... I miss you too ... my dear old friend...
Old friend ... old friend...
Old friend, so you're in trouble again, you ask me today,
To try and find a little time, and maybe buy a glass of wine,
Old friend, I'm coming through...
Old friend, yes I remember you, always a smile on your face,
Oh a memory from years before, an old man and a little boy,
Old friend, I remember you...
You used to take me fishing down by the wishing well,
One day you threw a wish in, and we listened while it fell,
And you made a wish...
"When the years are heavy, and my heart is growing cold,
Well I wish when the evening comes that there'll always Be...
Some old friend who'll miss me too..."
Well I do, so friend I'm coming through...
Yes, for you I'll always find the time, we will have a bottle
Of wine, old friend, I'm here by your side, oh, to the very end,
Old friend ... I miss you too ... my dear old friend...
Old friend ... old friend...
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
It may happen to us!
Many of us have experienced once or more about the time that we feel we are not aware of where we are standing! As I put it there are times that we feel that we are in limbo. No matter how or what, we should pass these uncharted water.
Alex the girl has very nicely put it down this.
...The ladder is an in-between place, a sort of resting spot. It’s where the salmon literally catch their breath as they learn to adjust their breathing from the ocean's saltwater to the lake's fresh....
read the rest of it here!
We will all understand, though...
xx. The ministry of Islamic Guidance and culture has allowed an album of Queen to be released in Iran. So, as occasion I decided to write this lyric of the song “ who wants to live forever…”
There's no time for us
There's no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
from us
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever....?
There's no chance for us
It's all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Who dares to love forever?
When love must die
But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today
Who waits forever anyway?
Alex the girl has very nicely put it down this.
...The ladder is an in-between place, a sort of resting spot. It’s where the salmon literally catch their breath as they learn to adjust their breathing from the ocean's saltwater to the lake's fresh....
read the rest of it here!
We will all understand, though...
xx. The ministry of Islamic Guidance and culture has allowed an album of Queen to be released in Iran. So, as occasion I decided to write this lyric of the song “ who wants to live forever…”
There's no time for us
There's no place for us
What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
from us
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever....?
There's no chance for us
It's all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Who dares to love forever?
When love must die
But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips
And we can have forever
And we can love forever
Forever is our today
Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever?
Forever is our today
Who waits forever anyway?
Monday, September 13, 2004
Two Brand New Elements!
Today is national holiday in Iran. What a day. let's say ... forget it...
enjoy these two new elements in Periodic Table:))
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Two new elements added to the Periodic Table of the Elements:
1. Element Name: WOMANIUM
Symbol: WO
Atomic Weight: (Don't even go there)
Physical Properties: Generally soft and round in form. Boils at
nothing
and may freeze at any time. Melts when treated properly. Very
Bitter if
not used well.
Chemical Properties: Very active. Highly unstable. Possesses strong
affinity with gold, silver, platinum and precious stones. Violent
when left alone. Able to absorb great amounts of exotic food. Turns
slightly green when placed next to a better specimen.
Usage: Highly ornamental. An extremely good catalyst for dispersion of
wealth. Probably the most powerful income reducing agent known.
Caution: Highly explosive in inexperienced hands.
***************
2. Element Name: MANIUM
Symbol: XY
Atomic Weight: (180 +/- 50)
Physical Properties: Solid at room temperature, but gets bent out of
shape easily. Fairly dense and sometimes flaky. Difficult to find a pure
sample. Due to rust, aging samples are unable to create
electricity.
Chemical Properties: Attempts to bond with any WO any chance it can get.
Also tends to form strong bonds with itself. Becomes explosive when
mixed with KD (Element: CHILDIUM) for prolonged periods of time.
Neutralize by saturating with alcohol.
Usage: None known. Possibly good methane source. Good samples are able
to produce large quantities on command.
Caution: In the absence of WO, this element rapidly decomposes and begins to smell.
enjoy these two new elements in Periodic Table:))
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Two new elements added to the Periodic Table of the Elements:
1. Element Name: WOMANIUM
Symbol: WO
Atomic Weight: (Don't even go there)
Physical Properties: Generally soft and round in form. Boils at
nothing
and may freeze at any time. Melts when treated properly. Very
Bitter if
not used well.
Chemical Properties: Very active. Highly unstable. Possesses strong
affinity with gold, silver, platinum and precious stones. Violent
when left alone. Able to absorb great amounts of exotic food. Turns
slightly green when placed next to a better specimen.
Usage: Highly ornamental. An extremely good catalyst for dispersion of
wealth. Probably the most powerful income reducing agent known.
Caution: Highly explosive in inexperienced hands.
***************
2. Element Name: MANIUM
Symbol: XY
Atomic Weight: (180 +/- 50)
Physical Properties: Solid at room temperature, but gets bent out of
shape easily. Fairly dense and sometimes flaky. Difficult to find a pure
sample. Due to rust, aging samples are unable to create
electricity.
Chemical Properties: Attempts to bond with any WO any chance it can get.
Also tends to form strong bonds with itself. Becomes explosive when
mixed with KD (Element: CHILDIUM) for prolonged periods of time.
Neutralize by saturating with alcohol.
Usage: None known. Possibly good methane source. Good samples are able
to produce large quantities on command.
Caution: In the absence of WO, this element rapidly decomposes and begins to smell.
Monday, September 06, 2004
understanding the value of things around us
I think we know that one of the dilemmas that Tehranis in particular encounter with is the amount of trash that people throw on the streets or into environment.
I witnessed about couple of days ago while traveling from downtown of Tehran to our home, a woman with her 10 years old boy who were intending to get off the bus. As soon as they got off the bus, she threw a water bottle into the water stream. Something came to my mind from the time I was attending a boarding (internat) school in Germany.
In the city the school of mine was located there was an occasion that the city will divide up the entire city to parts and tell each school to participate for cleaning and sweeping the streets. So, the city I used to live in was in the valley of south part of Germany’s Mountains. As a result, there were many stairs to climb. So, the place I got to clean up was full of stairs (You could imagine how difficult it was to clean up)! In any case, in two consecutive days we kept cleaning around the city.
This simple but valuable cooperative work helped me to understand the value of people who are cleaning our city. So, I no longer throw trashes on streets or anywhere but garbage bin.
I witnessed about couple of days ago while traveling from downtown of Tehran to our home, a woman with her 10 years old boy who were intending to get off the bus. As soon as they got off the bus, she threw a water bottle into the water stream. Something came to my mind from the time I was attending a boarding (internat) school in Germany.
In the city the school of mine was located there was an occasion that the city will divide up the entire city to parts and tell each school to participate for cleaning and sweeping the streets. So, the city I used to live in was in the valley of south part of Germany’s Mountains. As a result, there were many stairs to climb. So, the place I got to clean up was full of stairs (You could imagine how difficult it was to clean up)! In any case, in two consecutive days we kept cleaning around the city.
This simple but valuable cooperative work helped me to understand the value of people who are cleaning our city. So, I no longer throw trashes on streets or anywhere but garbage bin.
Friday, September 03, 2004
Hey you; Enjoy every moment before you regeret!
1. I am big fan of Roger Waters and Pink floyd. Just recently, once again this lyrics of hey you came to my mind and I felt that I would like to write it here:
Hey you,
Out there in the cold,
Getting lonely, getting old,
Can you feel me?
Hey you,
Standing in the aisle,
With itchy feet and fading smile,
Can you feel me?
Hey you,
Don't help them to bury the light.
Don't give in, without a fight.
Hey you,
Out there on your own,
Sitting naked by the phone,
Would you touch me?
Hey you,
With your ear against the wall,
Waiting for someone to call out,
Would you touch me?
Hey you,
Would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I'm coming home.
But it was only, fantasy.
The wall was too high, as you can see.
No matter how he tried, he could not break free.
And the worms ate into his brain.
Hey you,
Out there on the road,
Always doing what you're told,
Can you help me?
Hey you,
Out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you,
Don't tell me there's no hope at all.
Together we stand, divided we fall.
2. About two weeks ago I went on a day trip to North west of Tehran, Zanjan. These are just three photos of many photos I took during the trip! Becasue of low speed of the internet in Iran, I almost die to upload just a few! So, bear with me:)
No Comment!
A place that people used to wash their cloth there!
Inside Kataleh Khour Cave.
3. Alexthegirl has written another nice story.
I couldn't find it in her site, so again I copy it here all.
Care for roses
After my walk to the post this morning, I decided to pay a long overdue visit to my little neighbourhood bookstore. Its well-stocked bargain section always offers some kind of find that satisfies my book addiction (although my stop here always leaves me wanting wanting more). Today I happened across a $10 book on roses that seemed to contain all the information one would need. I took it to a nearby couch to inspect it a little more.
A few minutes into it, a frail looking woman who appeared to be in her 80's came and sat beside me.
"What are you reading?"she asked. I showed her my book. I explained to her I just moved into a home where I had inherited a dozen various rose bushes. Although they had been blooming perfectly for the first two weeks they now were lagging a little bit. Just leaving them as they were didn't seem to help them any.
"Oh honey," she said soothingly, "you don't need a book."
"I don't? Then what?"
All of a sudden, this quiet, frail woman who was dressed so pretty in that tea-serving grandmother kind of way bellowed, "Violence!"
I was taken a little off guard.
"Yes, violence! Lots of it! You have to cut them on an angle when the bloom dies, just above the leaf. Force it to bloom more is what will happen. Like all things, give it a little trauma and it can either die or grow. Roses will bloom more. Hardships sometimes produce the most amazing things."
And then she smiled sweetly, got up and left, leaving me to wonder if it was just roses she was talking about.
Hey you,
Out there in the cold,
Getting lonely, getting old,
Can you feel me?
Hey you,
Standing in the aisle,
With itchy feet and fading smile,
Can you feel me?
Hey you,
Don't help them to bury the light.
Don't give in, without a fight.
Hey you,
Out there on your own,
Sitting naked by the phone,
Would you touch me?
Hey you,
With your ear against the wall,
Waiting for someone to call out,
Would you touch me?
Hey you,
Would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I'm coming home.
But it was only, fantasy.
The wall was too high, as you can see.
No matter how he tried, he could not break free.
And the worms ate into his brain.
Hey you,
Out there on the road,
Always doing what you're told,
Can you help me?
Hey you,
Out there beyond the wall,
Breaking bottles in the hall,
Can you help me?
Hey you,
Don't tell me there's no hope at all.
Together we stand, divided we fall.
2. About two weeks ago I went on a day trip to North west of Tehran, Zanjan. These are just three photos of many photos I took during the trip! Becasue of low speed of the internet in Iran, I almost die to upload just a few! So, bear with me:)
No Comment!
A place that people used to wash their cloth there!
Inside Kataleh Khour Cave.
3. Alexthegirl has written another nice story.
I couldn't find it in her site, so again I copy it here all.
Care for roses
After my walk to the post this morning, I decided to pay a long overdue visit to my little neighbourhood bookstore. Its well-stocked bargain section always offers some kind of find that satisfies my book addiction (although my stop here always leaves me wanting wanting more). Today I happened across a $10 book on roses that seemed to contain all the information one would need. I took it to a nearby couch to inspect it a little more.
A few minutes into it, a frail looking woman who appeared to be in her 80's came and sat beside me.
"What are you reading?"she asked. I showed her my book. I explained to her I just moved into a home where I had inherited a dozen various rose bushes. Although they had been blooming perfectly for the first two weeks they now were lagging a little bit. Just leaving them as they were didn't seem to help them any.
"Oh honey," she said soothingly, "you don't need a book."
"I don't? Then what?"
All of a sudden, this quiet, frail woman who was dressed so pretty in that tea-serving grandmother kind of way bellowed, "Violence!"
I was taken a little off guard.
"Yes, violence! Lots of it! You have to cut them on an angle when the bloom dies, just above the leaf. Force it to bloom more is what will happen. Like all things, give it a little trauma and it can either die or grow. Roses will bloom more. Hardships sometimes produce the most amazing things."
And then she smiled sweetly, got up and left, leaving me to wonder if it was just roses she was talking about.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Story from Past
0.0. Ah, This Orkat is a weird site. You kinda develop hate and love relationship. I have been a memeber for a few months. but all of the sudden, I came across one of old friends and, voila, there we are I saw many people who I had not heard from for at least a few years. Some of them married, some of them single...I would like to make this statement right here: Man-o-man I missed those childhood years, we used to have fun without having real responsibility and just enjoyed ourselves, let's say just during those fun time skiing, anyone recalls?:)
I wish them all the best, may once again we all find time in between our busy schedule and get together and remember our old days.
0. A cOOl link about Persian Wedding and its tradition for those who wish to read about it in English:).
1. Narges sent me this following link. very cOOl link. It is a must see Link: Heart...
2. Almost until last night I did not feel that there was Olympic games going in Atens! This is the most important and colorful event of this year and not much of coverage on Iranian TV channels.
Finally, a Gold metal with Rezazadeh. This guy is something different from all others. He pulled up 264.5 Kg in clean and Jerk that seemed to me he is pulling up nuts!:) good for him with 26 years old. Now who is making jokes about Ardebilis and Turks;).
3. A sad news. Sir Godfrey Hounsfield a British electrical engineer whose work in creating the computerized axial tomography scanner, the CAT scan, a diagnostic tool used in hospitals worldwide, won him a Nobel Prize, died Aug. 12 at New Victoria Hospital in Kingston upon Thames, England. May his sould Rest In peace.
4. I was cleaning up my directories and came across this story of my trip to Quebec for white whater rafting. I would like to put it up to remind of our camping trip:).
here we go:
First, I would like to thank Guillermo (my friend), who wrote the comprehensive list of stuff that we may take by ourselves for the camping and rafting trip and remind us to take some wool and warm cloths besides other things required!
The trip started rolling by Saturday morning around 7:00 am. The original plan was 6:30 a.m., however, Lenie called in around 6:30 a.m. and said that they will be late because they had difficult time loading on their bicycles on the car! So, I waited in solidarity of my apartment building looking at the door for their arrival! They came about 7:05 am and we jump in and after a short negotiation about where to put my baggage and belongings (since there was not enough space) my belonging were split between two cars!
The next step was in Toronto, York Mills subway station where we had to pick up anxious Vay, who seemed to be ready to claim the mount Everest as soon as we arrive there! Or on the other hand, tired of waiting for half an hour extra of what she was promised!! In any case, she jumped in and we got ready to move towards our destination in Land of francophone Canadians, in Quebec! Everyone who went was Guillermo, Lenie, Vay, John, Brett, Lenie’s friends, Allen, Paul, Elaine and J.R, and myself.
Destination was close to a city known as Hawkesbury. It was right on the boarder of Ontario and Quebec! On our way to camping area we had couple of stops for releasing pressure from our bladders and have some food and starch our body for sake of humanity and our bones!!!! The most significant event happened when we realized that our map does not provided any information beyond the province of Ontario. That means from Ontario to our final destination we had to be on our own!! Therefore, as soon as we got to Hawkesbury, a town that was close to our destination we needed to find out about the Main Street! I suggested that we stop by a convenient store and I would do the honor to ask the direction to the rafting place! So, I stepped into the local convenient store in Hawkesbury. I realized the cashier and I lacking one major setback between us; and that was not knowing the common language that was spoken by me or him!!! You may ponder what do I mean? Indeed, the cashier could only speak French and I could only speak English, as if we are from two different countries!! I asked the direction for Main Street and he kindly with sign language and body motion showed me that I had to go straight and turn at the next immediate red light! However, the turning motion was with a strong lower body motion (i.e. dancing) and a sound of 'urrr' and turning their body in the direction that they're telling you to turn!!
The first night we didn’t really do anything significant, just setting out our tents and just usual things that someone would do in short camping trip! Hanging out by the main fire with some of the rafting guides and talking to people who went rafting that day. Lenie got really drunk the first night! She punished herself by not eating, though, drinking a lot! I think she got angry with Guillermo! That resulted in a night stay in Hawkesbury newly designed hospital!! Apparently, she was dehydrated! A doctor kept her over night and gave her Intravenous Serum! Probably, I should mention about how John carried Lenie to the car! Because Lenie was unconscious, she was kept on the forearm of John and her body was almost all over and some turning and pushing resulted to have her head hit to couple of trees and cars chassis! Probably that made her even more unconscious than she has already been!!! She still managed to go along with us rafting on the next day which was Sunday! Another funny event in the first night was around 4:00 am while most of people were asleep! There was this really annoying guy who was singing just for the sake of being annoying and feeling good about himself!! and then he needed something to chant so he started yelling 'GO LEAFS GO' (Leaf is a famous Toronto Hockey team;) and much as I would join in during a hockey game, that's not what I want to hear when I'm trying to sleep around 4 am!
Sunday was the rafting day. Lenie's friends opted not to go and went to Montreal! It was a cold day, the air was probably about 9 or 10 degrees Celsius and water was not anything more than 8 degrees Celsius! We were the only ones who needed the briefings in English. The rest were all French speaking groups! We got geared up with wetsuits, lifejackets, paddles and helmets at the camp, then we hopped on a bus for about 40 minutes. We almost got our necks and bone broken when riding on a school bus that had been suspension-less and was like a solid iron! The road was very much broken and no asphalt was properly applied on it! We finally got to the lake and unloaded the rafts. We were given a short briefing get ready to get in the boat. You are kind of stuck in this spot between fight and flight. Once you’re in the boat, that is it, it's fight all the way. We had a really cool guide, Anne, who told us there’s not really a place to drop someone off where it would be convenient to pick them up later!! She told us there was a guy once who just wanted off, but he just had to bear it out! During the runs there’s a guy on shore who takes pictures and videotapes so we were told to 'smile to the left.'
After the first run and after lunch a few groups declined the second run, but we all went again. The second time you were felling a bit braver and willing to try different things. We were 2 for 2 and no one fell into water!! (Yopi J) but some people in other boats went in by choice! Probably the funniest part of our rafting occurred when we were trying to rescue some dude from water and we stuck on the rocks and the boat would not move!! Everyone was jumping up and down and still no motion!!!! Finally we all moved to the one side of the boat and slowly the boat went on its way! If you wonder what happened to that guy who we wanted to rescue, sorry! We couldn’t take him out of water; he went with the water current and was picked with other boats!
The annoying thing was, we headed back to camp looking forward to a nice hot shower then we got there and there's no water pressure and it's lukewarm so that's always exciting.
The night arrived and we were told that we should get tickets for dinner. However, john and Brett came to me and told me that there is no dinner for us since our package we purchased is different from all other people who were there!! They said we should go to the closest city and get food! Once again my charm and good-looks (Zereshk!!) came to play and I talked to Jill (one of the organizers) and Anne (our rafting guide) and persuaded them to give us the tickets for the dinner!!! Everyone was quite amazed. “Empty everyone’s place (i.e. jaye hamegi khali)” we got a lovely dinner!
After dinner there was a video presentation and we could see that some guides were telling their groups to back-paddle when they hit a wave so they would fall in for sure, luckily Anne didn't do that to us.
At night, we started our own fire and enjoyed a cozy gathering around the fire with some deep conversation, where as usual I spoke the most and sang for the guys the folk song of “ MikhAm Beram Koh Shekare Aho, Hay Leili jan hay Laili jan tofang man ko!” In two distinguish versions! One as it is sang in Persian (mellow, relax tone) and the second one was sang with some influence of Rap music!!!!(Imagine that!!) A guitar was borrowed from a tent beside us and we played the same Persian song and people sang along with me!!!!!!!!!
Late night when our gang got a little weary and tired! I left them to see what was going on the other side of the camp side where tons of people were speaking in French in very loud and provocative way!! So, I walked towards them and got spotted by a few French fellows! After a short conversation, they decided that I am a cool guy and should be introduced to entire 200 French fellows who were there!!! So, we walked towards their big bonfire and I was introduced to plenty of French boys and girls from a small city close to Ottawa known as Rockland! I was told that these people were from Rockland and after a few years they were getting together! I would say that 95% were drunk!! So, after an hour and half being with them I decided I should go back and enjoy our own solitary fire! And so, my Sunday night ended there! I went back to my tent and realized, oh, my god it is cold!! It started to rain a little while I was getting ready to sleep. So, I decided to go to sleep! I wore couple of sweeter and went inside my sleeping bag and put on my hat on and hoped I would fell well soon! It wasn’t that bad, except in early morning I felt a little cold on my toes! I should mention that I had covered my face, too. So, that my breath would no moisture the air inside the tent!
The night ended there with me with lots of cloths on!! The next morning arrived and after breakfast we decided to pack and leave by noon!
You know what's annoying? When it starts to rain when you're packing up. You know what else is annoying? Trying to stuff a tent into a bag that's not a stuff sack. Will, you need a stuff sack for your tent!
I loved the trip the whole way, through the white water, the crashing waves and the freezing cold. I would definitely do it again, even in May. And from now on, I'll have fond memories when I smell rented wetsuit!
We learned that French people are loud, for a long time, late into the night, then again early in the morning. People were up singing at 6:30, then at 7:30, a guy yelled PETIT DÉJEUNER (Breakfast)! And if you tell Quebecois you're from Ontario but can't speak French, they get mad at you.
Now I’m home, I’ve had a real shower, had my dinner, and I’ll be in bed soon. And be thankful for the great old home!!!
I wish them all the best, may once again we all find time in between our busy schedule and get together and remember our old days.
0. A cOOl link about Persian Wedding and its tradition for those who wish to read about it in English:).
1. Narges sent me this following link. very cOOl link. It is a must see Link: Heart...
2. Almost until last night I did not feel that there was Olympic games going in Atens! This is the most important and colorful event of this year and not much of coverage on Iranian TV channels.
Finally, a Gold metal with Rezazadeh. This guy is something different from all others. He pulled up 264.5 Kg in clean and Jerk that seemed to me he is pulling up nuts!:) good for him with 26 years old. Now who is making jokes about Ardebilis and Turks;).
3. A sad news. Sir Godfrey Hounsfield a British electrical engineer whose work in creating the computerized axial tomography scanner, the CAT scan, a diagnostic tool used in hospitals worldwide, won him a Nobel Prize, died Aug. 12 at New Victoria Hospital in Kingston upon Thames, England. May his sould Rest In peace.
4. I was cleaning up my directories and came across this story of my trip to Quebec for white whater rafting. I would like to put it up to remind of our camping trip:).
here we go:
First, I would like to thank Guillermo (my friend), who wrote the comprehensive list of stuff that we may take by ourselves for the camping and rafting trip and remind us to take some wool and warm cloths besides other things required!
The trip started rolling by Saturday morning around 7:00 am. The original plan was 6:30 a.m., however, Lenie called in around 6:30 a.m. and said that they will be late because they had difficult time loading on their bicycles on the car! So, I waited in solidarity of my apartment building looking at the door for their arrival! They came about 7:05 am and we jump in and after a short negotiation about where to put my baggage and belongings (since there was not enough space) my belonging were split between two cars!
The next step was in Toronto, York Mills subway station where we had to pick up anxious Vay, who seemed to be ready to claim the mount Everest as soon as we arrive there! Or on the other hand, tired of waiting for half an hour extra of what she was promised!! In any case, she jumped in and we got ready to move towards our destination in Land of francophone Canadians, in Quebec! Everyone who went was Guillermo, Lenie, Vay, John, Brett, Lenie’s friends, Allen, Paul, Elaine and J.R, and myself.
Destination was close to a city known as Hawkesbury. It was right on the boarder of Ontario and Quebec! On our way to camping area we had couple of stops for releasing pressure from our bladders and have some food and starch our body for sake of humanity and our bones!!!! The most significant event happened when we realized that our map does not provided any information beyond the province of Ontario. That means from Ontario to our final destination we had to be on our own!! Therefore, as soon as we got to Hawkesbury, a town that was close to our destination we needed to find out about the Main Street! I suggested that we stop by a convenient store and I would do the honor to ask the direction to the rafting place! So, I stepped into the local convenient store in Hawkesbury. I realized the cashier and I lacking one major setback between us; and that was not knowing the common language that was spoken by me or him!!! You may ponder what do I mean? Indeed, the cashier could only speak French and I could only speak English, as if we are from two different countries!! I asked the direction for Main Street and he kindly with sign language and body motion showed me that I had to go straight and turn at the next immediate red light! However, the turning motion was with a strong lower body motion (i.e. dancing) and a sound of 'urrr' and turning their body in the direction that they're telling you to turn!!
The first night we didn’t really do anything significant, just setting out our tents and just usual things that someone would do in short camping trip! Hanging out by the main fire with some of the rafting guides and talking to people who went rafting that day. Lenie got really drunk the first night! She punished herself by not eating, though, drinking a lot! I think she got angry with Guillermo! That resulted in a night stay in Hawkesbury newly designed hospital!! Apparently, she was dehydrated! A doctor kept her over night and gave her Intravenous Serum! Probably, I should mention about how John carried Lenie to the car! Because Lenie was unconscious, she was kept on the forearm of John and her body was almost all over and some turning and pushing resulted to have her head hit to couple of trees and cars chassis! Probably that made her even more unconscious than she has already been!!! She still managed to go along with us rafting on the next day which was Sunday! Another funny event in the first night was around 4:00 am while most of people were asleep! There was this really annoying guy who was singing just for the sake of being annoying and feeling good about himself!! and then he needed something to chant so he started yelling 'GO LEAFS GO' (Leaf is a famous Toronto Hockey team;) and much as I would join in during a hockey game, that's not what I want to hear when I'm trying to sleep around 4 am!
Sunday was the rafting day. Lenie's friends opted not to go and went to Montreal! It was a cold day, the air was probably about 9 or 10 degrees Celsius and water was not anything more than 8 degrees Celsius! We were the only ones who needed the briefings in English. The rest were all French speaking groups! We got geared up with wetsuits, lifejackets, paddles and helmets at the camp, then we hopped on a bus for about 40 minutes. We almost got our necks and bone broken when riding on a school bus that had been suspension-less and was like a solid iron! The road was very much broken and no asphalt was properly applied on it! We finally got to the lake and unloaded the rafts. We were given a short briefing get ready to get in the boat. You are kind of stuck in this spot between fight and flight. Once you’re in the boat, that is it, it's fight all the way. We had a really cool guide, Anne, who told us there’s not really a place to drop someone off where it would be convenient to pick them up later!! She told us there was a guy once who just wanted off, but he just had to bear it out! During the runs there’s a guy on shore who takes pictures and videotapes so we were told to 'smile to the left.'
After the first run and after lunch a few groups declined the second run, but we all went again. The second time you were felling a bit braver and willing to try different things. We were 2 for 2 and no one fell into water!! (Yopi J) but some people in other boats went in by choice! Probably the funniest part of our rafting occurred when we were trying to rescue some dude from water and we stuck on the rocks and the boat would not move!! Everyone was jumping up and down and still no motion!!!! Finally we all moved to the one side of the boat and slowly the boat went on its way! If you wonder what happened to that guy who we wanted to rescue, sorry! We couldn’t take him out of water; he went with the water current and was picked with other boats!
The annoying thing was, we headed back to camp looking forward to a nice hot shower then we got there and there's no water pressure and it's lukewarm so that's always exciting.
The night arrived and we were told that we should get tickets for dinner. However, john and Brett came to me and told me that there is no dinner for us since our package we purchased is different from all other people who were there!! They said we should go to the closest city and get food! Once again my charm and good-looks (Zereshk!!) came to play and I talked to Jill (one of the organizers) and Anne (our rafting guide) and persuaded them to give us the tickets for the dinner!!! Everyone was quite amazed. “Empty everyone’s place (i.e. jaye hamegi khali)” we got a lovely dinner!
After dinner there was a video presentation and we could see that some guides were telling their groups to back-paddle when they hit a wave so they would fall in for sure, luckily Anne didn't do that to us.
At night, we started our own fire and enjoyed a cozy gathering around the fire with some deep conversation, where as usual I spoke the most and sang for the guys the folk song of “ MikhAm Beram Koh Shekare Aho, Hay Leili jan hay Laili jan tofang man ko!” In two distinguish versions! One as it is sang in Persian (mellow, relax tone) and the second one was sang with some influence of Rap music!!!!(Imagine that!!) A guitar was borrowed from a tent beside us and we played the same Persian song and people sang along with me!!!!!!!!!
Late night when our gang got a little weary and tired! I left them to see what was going on the other side of the camp side where tons of people were speaking in French in very loud and provocative way!! So, I walked towards them and got spotted by a few French fellows! After a short conversation, they decided that I am a cool guy and should be introduced to entire 200 French fellows who were there!!! So, we walked towards their big bonfire and I was introduced to plenty of French boys and girls from a small city close to Ottawa known as Rockland! I was told that these people were from Rockland and after a few years they were getting together! I would say that 95% were drunk!! So, after an hour and half being with them I decided I should go back and enjoy our own solitary fire! And so, my Sunday night ended there! I went back to my tent and realized, oh, my god it is cold!! It started to rain a little while I was getting ready to sleep. So, I decided to go to sleep! I wore couple of sweeter and went inside my sleeping bag and put on my hat on and hoped I would fell well soon! It wasn’t that bad, except in early morning I felt a little cold on my toes! I should mention that I had covered my face, too. So, that my breath would no moisture the air inside the tent!
The night ended there with me with lots of cloths on!! The next morning arrived and after breakfast we decided to pack and leave by noon!
You know what's annoying? When it starts to rain when you're packing up. You know what else is annoying? Trying to stuff a tent into a bag that's not a stuff sack. Will, you need a stuff sack for your tent!
I loved the trip the whole way, through the white water, the crashing waves and the freezing cold. I would definitely do it again, even in May. And from now on, I'll have fond memories when I smell rented wetsuit!
We learned that French people are loud, for a long time, late into the night, then again early in the morning. People were up singing at 6:30, then at 7:30, a guy yelled PETIT DÉJEUNER (Breakfast)! And if you tell Quebecois you're from Ontario but can't speak French, they get mad at you.
Now I’m home, I’ve had a real shower, had my dinner, and I’ll be in bed soon. And be thankful for the great old home!!!
Friday, August 13, 2004
Making Choices to see the sunshine
1. One of my write up has been published in Iranian.com, the link is Losing time to technology, enjoy!
2. The following write up has taken from Aliex the girl site. I could not find the proper link to it so, I had to cut and paste it here, becasue I had it in my e-mail.
I truly enjoyed reading it:-)
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It wasn’t the clear blue sky with a light breeze and a back yard in which to enjoy it, nor was it the very unexpected and beautiful gift from my friend. It wasn’t a bath, a nap or tea or the fact that I found a fabulous skirt on sale at my favourite store.
It was just my choice to shift my attitude that has me in such a state of pure, simple, breezy relaxation, happiness most importantly possibility.
For the past seven months, I feel as though I’ve been in a thick fog made from sadness, negative situations, and a run of bad luck.
It started in January when I lost my two nieces, something that devastated me terribly and which I kept trying to recover from, but just couldn’t quite do it (especially since I had purchased their birthday gifts which ended up sitting in my closet as a reminder for 7 months). In February I went to Paris for my birthday which should have been nothing but fabulous (and, I assure you the night of my birthday and the night after – two of my favourites, ever) but I was terribly ill for the entire month due to an ovarian cyst which left me lethargic, sore and puffy.
March came and I realized a friend in the writing industry had used me and that there were just no bones about it. I had to struggle with this for a while along with other issues about the creative industry, which left me feeling sad, lonely and taken. It didn't help that I generally receivd hundreds of emails a day from people who demanded things from me (advice, time, money) and I was never replenished. So I spent so much time trying to help but being so drained by the process.
In April I realized I could no longer write for a living because it was far too lonely – after three years I missed people and I missed doing tactile things. I was also very bitter with creative people, the
fakeness, the copying, the phrases. I didn’t know what to leave writing for and began to feel like I was just drifting. I couldn’t go back to an office world but I couldn’t move forward as I was. It was all so trying.
May and June brought Chris studying like mad to graduate which had me feeling left out and strange. Throwing him a party for family members brought conflict and tiredness. I also broke out twice in a strange case of hives, which had me being rushed to emergency because I couldn’t breathe. Sadly, that didn’t bother me as much as the fact I had red welts all over my body and face.
July brought the most pain, I think. It would be the time I think I’ve been at my lowest. People started to party all night – every night – in our complex and when I asked them once at 3AM to be quiet, they came out to my door and slammed on it, threatening me with my life. The scary part was one of the girls worked in the leasing office and complained the main agent who told me to not harass people and that my rent was going to go up $150. This caused us to have to move in two days, which took money we didn’t have (since I haven’t really been working save for a few photographic travel assignments). My body was sore, my spirit was broken and I was angry. I felt pushed into a direction I didn’t want to go. When we did move, my body was so swollen and the place so overwhelming that I just ended up collapsing one afternoon only to have to get up the next day to unpack, settle and do more.
On top of all of this, I lost both my parents and had (and still do) a mentally ill half-sister who has been stalking and threatening me the entire time.
I felt that I kept getting hit every day from every direction. I had been trying for so long to hold on. But after months of it all and of me feeling trap to complaining, being negative and jumping on the life sucks bandwagon, I had no strength left. I had no magic left. I had no possibility left and my body and mind just gave out. Literally.
I was emotionally and physically drained, causing me to become like a zombie for a few days in my bed. This was more than wallowing; I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t do anything. The magic that I felt I once possessed – to see the world in a beautiful, charming way, to laugh at silly things, to be entertained easily, to deal with things and move forward, to be excited about the future and to feel possible, well, it seemed gone.
I thought this is it. This is how I am. I had a long run at having an amazing life and now I used it all up. There wasn’t anything left to do. I was in a city I didn’t like, in a house I was scared of, without family, without a job or career, with friends far gone and nothing to show. Seven months of things just hitting me without ever feeling like I caught a break, received a helping hand, had a bit of comfort, well, it was too much.
It wasn’t like me to complain but I had been bitching non-stop to Katrina about how I had to move and how I missed my pretty lake-view flat with painted walls and was now in a house that overwhelmed me and scared me. I complained about how hard everything had been and how I just felt lost. She let me whine for a while but then she wrote me an email that kicked my ass.
She said, “But think about all that you do have.
At first, I wanted to scream at her because I thought that wasn’t supportive. All that I have? Did she know the hell this year has been? But then I thought about it. And I thought some more. And I realized that despite every crap thing that happened – I am still here. I still have possibility, I still have adventures waiting, I still have the ability to see the beautiful and I have the determination to change everything I don’t like and accept what I can if I choose to believe in this way.
And that day changed everything.
I started to feel better about the house, realizing we had to do it and it’s only temporary until our move to Europe. And, in fact, I’ve been enjoying the yard so much (two hours worth of gardening and weeding each night. Rock star arms!). When the curtains went up, the candles came out and some paint went on the walls, it was home.
I started to make contacts for what I want to do, I went and got a new hair cut (a fringe! Sassy!), I got rid of the presents for my neices so that I'm no longer reminded each day, I got rid of some of my fathers old belongings and have stopped anticipating emails and calls from my mum. I began to relax and read for the first time in ages, I’ve been selling literally 1/2 of my belongings to get rid of the old so that I can move forward and I’ve just gotten over being poopy, disheveled, and a victim of all things crap.
Adjusting my attitude, knowing that how I view this life is my choice, of waking up, of making different choices on how I see things, has been the key to me getting off my arse and back to who I am – someone I haven’t seen since last year.
Things aren’t all cleared up, resolved or even easy but that’s OK for now because they’re not things that are going to stop me or ruin what I can possible have and do in the future. Because I’m choosing to rock out in spite of it all.
And that feels so good.
2. The following write up has taken from Aliex the girl site. I could not find the proper link to it so, I had to cut and paste it here, becasue I had it in my e-mail.
I truly enjoyed reading it:-)
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It wasn’t the clear blue sky with a light breeze and a back yard in which to enjoy it, nor was it the very unexpected and beautiful gift from my friend. It wasn’t a bath, a nap or tea or the fact that I found a fabulous skirt on sale at my favourite store.
It was just my choice to shift my attitude that has me in such a state of pure, simple, breezy relaxation, happiness most importantly possibility.
For the past seven months, I feel as though I’ve been in a thick fog made from sadness, negative situations, and a run of bad luck.
It started in January when I lost my two nieces, something that devastated me terribly and which I kept trying to recover from, but just couldn’t quite do it (especially since I had purchased their birthday gifts which ended up sitting in my closet as a reminder for 7 months). In February I went to Paris for my birthday which should have been nothing but fabulous (and, I assure you the night of my birthday and the night after – two of my favourites, ever) but I was terribly ill for the entire month due to an ovarian cyst which left me lethargic, sore and puffy.
March came and I realized a friend in the writing industry had used me and that there were just no bones about it. I had to struggle with this for a while along with other issues about the creative industry, which left me feeling sad, lonely and taken. It didn't help that I generally receivd hundreds of emails a day from people who demanded things from me (advice, time, money) and I was never replenished. So I spent so much time trying to help but being so drained by the process.
In April I realized I could no longer write for a living because it was far too lonely – after three years I missed people and I missed doing tactile things. I was also very bitter with creative people, the
fakeness, the copying, the phrases. I didn’t know what to leave writing for and began to feel like I was just drifting. I couldn’t go back to an office world but I couldn’t move forward as I was. It was all so trying.
May and June brought Chris studying like mad to graduate which had me feeling left out and strange. Throwing him a party for family members brought conflict and tiredness. I also broke out twice in a strange case of hives, which had me being rushed to emergency because I couldn’t breathe. Sadly, that didn’t bother me as much as the fact I had red welts all over my body and face.
July brought the most pain, I think. It would be the time I think I’ve been at my lowest. People started to party all night – every night – in our complex and when I asked them once at 3AM to be quiet, they came out to my door and slammed on it, threatening me with my life. The scary part was one of the girls worked in the leasing office and complained the main agent who told me to not harass people and that my rent was going to go up $150. This caused us to have to move in two days, which took money we didn’t have (since I haven’t really been working save for a few photographic travel assignments). My body was sore, my spirit was broken and I was angry. I felt pushed into a direction I didn’t want to go. When we did move, my body was so swollen and the place so overwhelming that I just ended up collapsing one afternoon only to have to get up the next day to unpack, settle and do more.
On top of all of this, I lost both my parents and had (and still do) a mentally ill half-sister who has been stalking and threatening me the entire time.
I felt that I kept getting hit every day from every direction. I had been trying for so long to hold on. But after months of it all and of me feeling trap to complaining, being negative and jumping on the life sucks bandwagon, I had no strength left. I had no magic left. I had no possibility left and my body and mind just gave out. Literally.
I was emotionally and physically drained, causing me to become like a zombie for a few days in my bed. This was more than wallowing; I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t do anything. The magic that I felt I once possessed – to see the world in a beautiful, charming way, to laugh at silly things, to be entertained easily, to deal with things and move forward, to be excited about the future and to feel possible, well, it seemed gone.
I thought this is it. This is how I am. I had a long run at having an amazing life and now I used it all up. There wasn’t anything left to do. I was in a city I didn’t like, in a house I was scared of, without family, without a job or career, with friends far gone and nothing to show. Seven months of things just hitting me without ever feeling like I caught a break, received a helping hand, had a bit of comfort, well, it was too much.
It wasn’t like me to complain but I had been bitching non-stop to Katrina about how I had to move and how I missed my pretty lake-view flat with painted walls and was now in a house that overwhelmed me and scared me. I complained about how hard everything had been and how I just felt lost. She let me whine for a while but then she wrote me an email that kicked my ass.
She said, “But think about all that you do have.
At first, I wanted to scream at her because I thought that wasn’t supportive. All that I have? Did she know the hell this year has been? But then I thought about it. And I thought some more. And I realized that despite every crap thing that happened – I am still here. I still have possibility, I still have adventures waiting, I still have the ability to see the beautiful and I have the determination to change everything I don’t like and accept what I can if I choose to believe in this way.
And that day changed everything.
I started to feel better about the house, realizing we had to do it and it’s only temporary until our move to Europe. And, in fact, I’ve been enjoying the yard so much (two hours worth of gardening and weeding each night. Rock star arms!). When the curtains went up, the candles came out and some paint went on the walls, it was home.
I started to make contacts for what I want to do, I went and got a new hair cut (a fringe! Sassy!), I got rid of the presents for my neices so that I'm no longer reminded each day, I got rid of some of my fathers old belongings and have stopped anticipating emails and calls from my mum. I began to relax and read for the first time in ages, I’ve been selling literally 1/2 of my belongings to get rid of the old so that I can move forward and I’ve just gotten over being poopy, disheveled, and a victim of all things crap.
Adjusting my attitude, knowing that how I view this life is my choice, of waking up, of making different choices on how I see things, has been the key to me getting off my arse and back to who I am – someone I haven’t seen since last year.
Things aren’t all cleared up, resolved or even easy but that’s OK for now because they’re not things that are going to stop me or ruin what I can possible have and do in the future. Because I’m choosing to rock out in spite of it all.
And that feels so good.
Friday, July 23, 2004
What is up?
1. ... Since I was a little girl, this blanket has felt like a huge, warm hug. Its softness comes from being wrapped around others for years, and, combined with the weight of it, feels like they’re still somehow there....Read the rest at Alex's site.
2. For those who like Alireza Asar the Iranian pop singer. Here is latest
Asar's Album
3. Thanks to narges who send me ththe followings: bugger Link:)
Olympics
4. Something about one of the comments I received for my last write up. As I indicated I knew Mr. Kasravi from not so many close encounters. In any case, he just passed away and despite his view I believe he didn't deserve any of the comments a fellow left in my previous comment area. So, I wanted to erase that comment but I did not. People are entitle in their opinions however, they should refrain themselves from insulting one another.
5. Murphy's Love Laws
All the good ones are taken.
If the person isn't taken, there's a reason. (corr. to 1)
The nicer someone is, the farther away (s)he is from you.
Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant.
The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.
Money can't buy love, but it sure gets you a great bargaining position.
The best things in the world are free --- and worth every penny of it.
Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction.
Nice guys(girls) finish last.
If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.
Availability is a function of time. The minute you get interested is the minute they find someone else.
2. For those who like Alireza Asar the Iranian pop singer. Here is latest
Asar's Album
3. Thanks to narges who send me ththe followings: bugger Link:)
Olympics
4. Something about one of the comments I received for my last write up. As I indicated I knew Mr. Kasravi from not so many close encounters. In any case, he just passed away and despite his view I believe he didn't deserve any of the comments a fellow left in my previous comment area. So, I wanted to erase that comment but I did not. People are entitle in their opinions however, they should refrain themselves from insulting one another.
5. Murphy's Love Laws
All the good ones are taken.
If the person isn't taken, there's a reason. (corr. to 1)
The nicer someone is, the farther away (s)he is from you.
Brains x Beauty x Availability = Constant.
The amount of love someone feels for you is inversely proportional to how much you love them.
Money can't buy love, but it sure gets you a great bargaining position.
The best things in the world are free --- and worth every penny of it.
Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction.
Nice guys(girls) finish last.
If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.
Availability is a function of time. The minute you get interested is the minute they find someone else.
Sunday, July 04, 2004
Fred Kasravi; Manjil...
1. It is sad day for me I just read in eyeranian.net that Mr. Fereydoun Kasravi (Fred Kasravi), one of early Iranian immigrants and political activists in Toronto, passed away. I shall write this following paragraph about the way I first met him in person in Toronto. The following is in his memoriam.
It was a rainy night in November of 1998. I was sitting in university laboratory trying figure out content of one of the papers I was trying to use in my work. The entire day I was reading it and as much as I read it the less I understood! I was aware of the classical concert in Glen-Gould studio of CBC radio in down town of Toronto at very same day at 8:00 pm. An Iranian conductor who had recently come to Canada was conducting the symphony orchestra, which was called Symphony of Nations. So, I as a big fan of classical concerts decided to go there. It was around 7:30 pm, all of the sudden, I decided to take a subway (Metro) to the CBC. I knew that finding a ticket might be a difficult task. However, I said to myself that it may a miracle happens and I would get hold of a ticket since I am a single audience per say. So, I arrived about five minutes to the program and went directly to the ticket desk. At the desk the cashier stated that all the tickets are sold out. I was quite getting depressed. While standing there, hoping for a miracle to take place; Mr. Khosravi with his typical outfit came towards ticket desk. The cashier told him: Mr. Khosravi your tickets are ready, they are 6 of them. Would you like to pick them up, now? As soon as he received the tickets there were about 5 women ran towards him with fancy cloths asking simultaneously for extra tickets. I, on the other hand, slowly approached him and asked him for a ticket with a low voice. Apparently, he needed the 4 tickets and then he turned his face to me and said you said you needed a ticket, did you say so? You are only one person? I positively confirmed it. So, he handed me a ticket and when I told him how much shall I pay for it, he answered: “Be my guest, don’t worry”. I thank him and ran into the theater. I was honored to watch the work of Rimsky-Korsokov, Scheherzade. It was memorable night since I also met Ms. Barbara Hall, the ex-Mayer of Toronto. And get to enjoy a very beautiful work like "The young Prince and the
Young Princes" of Rimsky-Korsokov. I met him, couple of other times in charities and aid organizations he was a man with pride.
He will be missed. May his soul rest in peace.
It is raining in Tehran. I shall say: I do my crying in the rain.
2. I went a way last week to take a part in a National Competition of white water rafting.
Apparently, it was first of its kind in Iran for women. The competition was held in Manjil. A city, which is famous for its high-speed wind and its wind turbine and not to mention Olives gardens.
I have to admit that I ate so much olive that I was almost seeing Olive in my dreams for a while!! Moving on, I have taken couple of pictures. Enjoy them here.
3. This is ridicules that http://www.geocities.com is banned by Iran telecom!! I have no comment on this issue than we have really lost the path.
It was a rainy night in November of 1998. I was sitting in university laboratory trying figure out content of one of the papers I was trying to use in my work. The entire day I was reading it and as much as I read it the less I understood! I was aware of the classical concert in Glen-Gould studio of CBC radio in down town of Toronto at very same day at 8:00 pm. An Iranian conductor who had recently come to Canada was conducting the symphony orchestra, which was called Symphony of Nations. So, I as a big fan of classical concerts decided to go there. It was around 7:30 pm, all of the sudden, I decided to take a subway (Metro) to the CBC. I knew that finding a ticket might be a difficult task. However, I said to myself that it may a miracle happens and I would get hold of a ticket since I am a single audience per say. So, I arrived about five minutes to the program and went directly to the ticket desk. At the desk the cashier stated that all the tickets are sold out. I was quite getting depressed. While standing there, hoping for a miracle to take place; Mr. Khosravi with his typical outfit came towards ticket desk. The cashier told him: Mr. Khosravi your tickets are ready, they are 6 of them. Would you like to pick them up, now? As soon as he received the tickets there were about 5 women ran towards him with fancy cloths asking simultaneously for extra tickets. I, on the other hand, slowly approached him and asked him for a ticket with a low voice. Apparently, he needed the 4 tickets and then he turned his face to me and said you said you needed a ticket, did you say so? You are only one person? I positively confirmed it. So, he handed me a ticket and when I told him how much shall I pay for it, he answered: “Be my guest, don’t worry”. I thank him and ran into the theater. I was honored to watch the work of Rimsky-Korsokov, Scheherzade. It was memorable night since I also met Ms. Barbara Hall, the ex-Mayer of Toronto. And get to enjoy a very beautiful work like "The young Prince and the
Young Princes" of Rimsky-Korsokov. I met him, couple of other times in charities and aid organizations he was a man with pride.
He will be missed. May his soul rest in peace.
It is raining in Tehran. I shall say: I do my crying in the rain.
2. I went a way last week to take a part in a National Competition of white water rafting.
Apparently, it was first of its kind in Iran for women. The competition was held in Manjil. A city, which is famous for its high-speed wind and its wind turbine and not to mention Olives gardens.
I have to admit that I ate so much olive that I was almost seeing Olive in my dreams for a while!! Moving on, I have taken couple of pictures. Enjoy them here.
3. This is ridicules that http://www.geocities.com is banned by Iran telecom!! I have no comment on this issue than we have really lost the path.
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